Fears.

i am contemplating the idea of transitioning. I look at other FTMs in transition who are seeing the effects of T and their results with top surgery and i am so envious and maybe a little jealous. I cant imagine the person i will become when im older but i guess ill work that out on the way. 

I worry about whether people will see me for who i am.

I worry about the effect on my family

I worry about the effects top surgery, which is a major surgery; will have on my health.

I worry about the effects of doing nothing on my happiness.